THANK YOU to the first anonymous person who responded to my blog today with, “I feel that! I think the most frequently used phrase in my world these days is ‘Jesus help me!’ It’s funny in a sense but very real and full of truth. We cannot do anything apart from His help and strength!” I was so excited to see someone reply that I hit the “delete” button instead of “publish”! I hope posting it here makes it even more special. Just like you, my days are filled with me saying internally and sometimes aloud, “Jesus help me!”
So, today only one word encapsulates how I felt most of the time: DEFEATED! A lot of little things, as always, add up to a stress-ridden desperation inside. Having four kids getting over the stomach flu last week with a few symptoms of it still lingering was one item on today’s agenda. In addition, one of my children was extra sensitive, and anything was setting him off into a spiral of tears. It then seemed that the other children caught the “virus” of sensitivity too. Oh, and did I mention my sweet two-year-old wouldn’t keep a diaper on, nor will he use the potty? So yeah, this meant a lot of just…surviving the day. And yes, we did survive! Yet, the patience I need in the midst of those harder moments of motherhood is something I DO NOT have without asking the Lord to help me. Thank you, Jesus, for never leaving us alone to face even the small moments in my day. Let me go to you FIRST before I pick up the phone, before I continue on with the day.
I don’t have it all together. I am okay with admitting this, and not in a way that puts myself down—but in just an honest, reality-check way. It’s like those times when I know I have to make lunch, but I just can’t seem to do it; does that happen to other moms? I’ll be stuck in the kitchen…stuck on what to do because of the stress of the day. Breathe, I know that is what I want first! Then, back to asking Jesus to HELP ME once again in this seemingly insignificant yet for me monumental task. He is there and He does hear me. I am consoled knowing it is truly Him who hears, who cares for ME, even when I feel like I’m doing all the caring. HE CARES. He is a Good Daddy to our children, and TO US as mothers, as women. We aren’t ever enough without Him. With Him, there are NO limits!
Until tomorrow… 🙂
God bless you all 😘